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Oh! I did the thing!
I WROTE A CHAPTER AFTER ALMOST A MONTH OF NOTHING. Check it out if you wanna :) here's a snippet, and the link if you want to read more <3
As a human, New Year's Eve was a night I eagerly circled on calendars the day I bought them, marked with bright ink, some doodles, and a few exclamation points for good measure. The thrill of doing so was edged on by the buzz induced by the New Year's event that had occurred a day or two before, as well as the excitement of planning for the one ahead. As a product of New Orleans, I lived for parties, especially the extravaganzas in honor of a new year. Although nothing could shine as bright as our beloved Mardi Gras, New Year's Eve came very, very close.
Parties in the Crescent City were unique and worth the tourism it rightly deserved. The celebrations were considered to be street parties, and welcomed partygoers from around the world. Restaurants and jazz clubs held their doors wide open, musicians played on every corner of the French Quarter, and vendors were set up as far as the eye could see. Lights were strung from every nook and cranny, creating a blanket of stars beneath the celestial beauties dotting the night sky.
Despite the prohibition, which was alive and well for a decent portion of my adult life, alcohol found a way to flow freely under the noses of the law, fueling the debauchery that loitered within my beloved city. Champagne bubbles tickled my nose as I tossed back glass after glass, and whiskey warmed my insides as it settled in my stomach, igniting a fire against the chill of winter.
But oh, the dancing! The dancing was the highlight of it all and absolutely nothing could compare. Drunk off of the music and the liquid courage burning in my veins, I would twirl among the crowds, uncaring and free. I was alive, laughing and spinning as if all of New Orleans was my dancefloor. As a single woman, I'd flit from person to person, not a care in the world of whose arms had been encircled around me. Boundaries simply didn't exist on nights like these. Everyone was there to have a good time, and if you could cut a rug, you were fair game no matter who you belonged to.
Truth be told, I could have made a dance partner out of a murderer, which, in hindsight, I guess technically I did. After marrying Alastor, who turned out to be the Crescent City Phantom that haunted the streets of New Orleans, I truly expected my free-spirited fun to end. Much to my surprise, it didn't— he only added his dark, eager enthusiasm into the mix. The social butterfly found as much passion for the New Year's parties as I did, never denying me the opportunity to dance the night away as we counted down to midnight. And boy, could he dance! Alastor could dance better than anyone I've ever know, but he never let me stray far. He was very selfish and kept me to himself, his hands possessive as he held me close, which was fine by me. He indulged my every whim and fancy, never complaining unless I got too touchy or became stumbling drunk.
New Year's Eve in Hell, like most holidays, was a vastly different experience than the ones I had up above. It was a twisted version of the affair, lacking the glimmers of hope and eager resolutions that I was accustomed to. The night had one of the most somber atmosphere, filled with a sort of primal dread and anxiety that sat like a gargoyle on your shoulders. It dripped from the pores of every Sinner, the air heavy with fear and anticipation for what the next day would bring.
#current wip#fanfic#alastor x oc#hazbin hotel#alastor#hazbin alastor#wip#fighting the big sad#i wrote this on a whim#i joined a writing challenge!!!#nanowrimo
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i genuinely don't care how good a piece of ai generated art or writing looks on the surface. i don't care if it emulates brush strokes and metaphor in a way indistinguishable from those created by a person.
it is not the product of thoughtful creation. it offers no insights into the creator's life or viewpoint. it has no connection to a moment in time or a place or an attitude. it has no perspective. it has no value.
it's empty, it's hollow, and it exists only to generate clicks (and by extension, ad revenue.)
it's just another revolting symptom of the disease that is late stage capitalism, and it fucking sucks.
#''but i just want to use it to--'' don't care! it's shit! stop fucking feeding it!#if you need help generating ideas or jumping off points then join an artist or writer group online#talk to people#make connections#that's what art and writing is supposed to be about in the first place#i'm mad as hell etc.#so goddamn sick and tired of seeing ai shit get passed around on here#it's bad enough in general but every time i see more of it showing up#tagged as fan art or as fic#the angrier i get#heartfelt imperfection in art and writing will always ALWAYS be worth more than the most technically ''perfect'' ai generated image or text#fandom problems#ai generation algorithms die in a fire challenge 2k23#just a heads up that i'm muting this post and will no longer see responses to it#because i'm tired of seeing dogshit takes from jackasses who want to ''debate'' me#there's no debate you're in the wrong on literally every level and you can die mad about it
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if yord had lived he'd be leading the hunt for qimir and osha and we would've gotten the most delicious tension between him and qimir. qimir would start out frustrated that yord got away, intent on finishing what he started. and yord, once hunted, now hunter, once an exemplary jedi, and now solely focused on revenge disguised as righteous justice (which it is also a bit of that). and qimir starts to enjoy the game, the chase. and in this timeline, sol still dies, osha still goes with qimir, but yord was unconscious, recovering in a bacta tank, so all he knows when he wakes up is that qimir is out there and took osha, his friend, away. so then you also have the tension of that confrontation, the realization that osha has willingly turned, and that maybe yord can't blame her for that, because what has he been doing these past many months, years, maybe, but give in to the selfish desire to finish what he started too?
#in this au vernestra doesn't blame sol for all the deaths. like maybe she doesn't say it was her apprentice#but she says they're dealing w someone powerful#like she can't lie about that bc yord can testify#and in this maybe jecki lives. on one hand - probably not bc yord's guilt about her death would be SO GOOD#but on the other hand just maybe stick her in a coma for a while idk lol. until she joins him on the hunt#plus if she lives osha's betrayal will feel more personal...... hmm....#i literally do not have time to write another fic. i haven't even finished the ones i'm currently working on!!!#but now this is sticking in my brain.....#idk that post about yord's little gay earring just made me think that he should have gay tension with qimir. just a thought#like if we REALLY wanted to discuss the themes of light and dark and the in-between#and the whole 'nobody wakes up and thinks they're the bad guy' theme#maybe we should've left the very stoic uptight capital g Good Guy jedi alive to challenge that#yord fandar#qimir#osha aniseya#the acolyte#star wars#sticking this in the tag:#my writing#bc i very well might come back to this
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sometimes it's like. i don't really wanna have an opinion about this in public because i don't feel that strongly. but a lot of people are having ill informed opinions about it and i don't feel i can offer correct information without also an opinion. so i just have to suffer
#this is about nanowrimo lmao#having been involved with nano for fifteen years i can promise it was always a website/organised thing#and there WERE reasons for the website to exist and the community of the forums was a huge part of it#now they totally fucked that up a few years back but originally it was a massive part of it#especially bc when i joined nano twitter was like... barely a thing?#there were so few ways of finding a writing community at the time#very few wordcount trackers you didn't have to build yourself in excel etc#it had reasons to exist at the beginning. i would argue it has much less reason to exist now#but it wasn't a subsequent 'cashing in' on a concept#anyway.#the reason i don't have strong opinions about the current fuckery beyond an eye roll#is that i already walked away from being invested in nano because there has been So. Much. Fuckery#this is a nail in a coffin I'd already accepted was buried#and i get that people are more likely to care about the ai thing#as like. symbolic of wider societal issues or whatever#vs grooming and harassment and racism and firing all the MLs#bc that affects people in the community much more than people inside it#but. look. if you're gonna expound upon it#consider that nanowrimo started in 1999 and forums were THE way to connect with people online#and the website as it grew in the 00s primarily revolved around the forums#and continued to do so through the 2010s#and that no it wasn't just a social media challenge bc social media didn't exist yet#there IS a reason nanowrimo has a centralised website and organisation#it wouldn't exist without them#bc I can't be arsed to explain this again#*more than people OUTSIDE it
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I’ll be honest, for as many years at I’ve seen October art/writing challenges (and art challenges the rest of the weeks/months of the year), I’ve only attempted a few and never finished any.
That being said, I think what I’m going to do for my umpteenth attempt this new October is to just.. do. Just do something every day. Any challenge, any prompt, any event, even if it’s mixed and mismatched. Doesn’t matter if it’s finished, though I will try for it. A few well-typed sentences, a sketched drawing, an unfinished study, I’ll still label them a success. I want my goal for this month to be to make improvements in my art and passions and to make an effort. Not bogged down by perfectionism or despair or lack of motivation or whatever else may stop me. I want to make the challenge of this month for me to live my life thoughtfully and love and respect what I bring into it again.
#ghost posts#i did officially join one challenge#and that’s going to be my main focus which is definitely out of my comfort zone#but I���m trying to make it a goal to work on my art/writing in general again#and just using the start of the month as a kick off I guess lol#I’ve already spent the first two days working on sculptures and thinking about writing ideas#it’s been a long time since I’ve loved my art so I’m hoping to work towards that this month#and not be so caught up in my own head and fatigue#obvs only so much I can do if I have a fatigue episode#but then I make that time into rest/audiobook time#and start back again when I wake up#anyway yeah this is my own challenge for challenge month lol#i keep trying to find little ways to improve my life and I’m hopeful#going to try to work on my fitness and diet too 💪#balanced diet I don’t do that trend stuff#also above all working on my faith. scriptures and sermons#move over New Years resolutions this is October makeover
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This was supposed to be 3 thousand words........
#it's............... over 7 thousand so far. and i still have a good chunk i want to write. god damn it.#no one asked for a possibly 10k fic about nile secretly joining a fight club as an unhealthy coping mechanism for becoming immortal -#- and y'know losing her family and having her entire world shift#but here i am writing it.#siggy write a short fic challenge
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i've always wanted like, a book club, or a writing club. but chill and small. people are scary
#i've joined a few but it's always wow people#like lets read and discuss books together#lets write about a certain topic and challenge each other#and celebrate each other#i'm big on cooperation i kind of love people but also anxiety
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i am deathly afraid of prompts and writing challenges/exchanges because of how chaotic my process is, it’s hard for me to follow anything but the Holy Spirit that takes over my body when i write. i’ve written two exchange fics in the past two years that took a lot out of me but i ended up proud of what i wrote so at least im working on it? lol
send me a 📝 for a random writing post lol
#that’s why you never see me write prompts outside of my prompts list#and also why I don’t join writing challenges or week prompt thingies fandoms do sometimes#im scared…#ask games
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A Letter
I decided to join in the Chesterton Challenge, answering the prompt "Letter." It gave me the motivation to write a letter I'd been meaning to write for years, from one of my original characters to another, at a certain point in their book series. It was fun to explore their daily life between books and to see how they'd express (or hide) what they felt about each other at that point in the story.
#the chesterton challenge#inklingschallenge#my characters#avonholm series#arienna#bran#letters#words#writing prompts#writing challenge#thank you for the excellent writing prompt#Inklings Challenge!#it really helped me be creative this weekend#I decided I wanted to participate in a challenge like this someday or next time#and then I noticed the invitation to everyone to join in whenever they want#so I did#it was good for me#and for my writing#and my sweet characters#couple a
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sharing my wangxian phlebotomist!wwx/blood donor!lwj au from twitter here (a summary here if you wanna see)
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The hardest part of the adoption process was supposed to be endless paperwork and screenings and the anxiety of not being good enough to meet high standards of the court.
It wasn't supposed to be A-Yuan's first doctors appointment.
His pitiful screams fill the small doctor's office. He's clinging to Lan Wangji's shoulders like there a lifeline, hiding and all LWJ wants to do is bundle up his son and carry him back to safety.
But these are mandatory vaccines he needs in order to attend pre-k. So he cant.
Nurse: Shots are never fun at this age, huh He would beg to differ; they're never fun at any age But see lwj isnt afraid of the shots themselves. Hes terrified of the sight of blood. His BFF loves horror movies & he watches them with her bravely by staring at the corner of the tv
When lwj gets his blood drawn, he looks closes his eyes and imagines being in a cold pond somewhere. But he's never been afraid of just the shot before.
He's helpless in the face of his son's distress. The nurse sighs, saying theyll have to try again another day.
A-Yuan sniffles into his baba's shirt, exhausted from the crying fit. His eyes are still watery and he looks around the room with such fear in his eyes, before withdrawing back into the safety of his baba's chest.
Lan Wangji has no idea what to do, only cradles him closer
Thankfully, LWJ has someone who can help. His best friend, Jiang Yanli is a child therapist and has been helping him prepare his home for A-Yuan.
If anyone knows what to do, it's Yanli-jie
JYL: Zhanzhan, have you tried showing him its not scary?
LWJ has not, bc he's terrified
JYL is the only one allowed to call him Zhanzhan. In Uni she was the one who mentored him his first week of school. Someone slipped him alcohol and he got deliriously drunk.
Yanli-jie was the one who found him and took him home. This is what they told the cohort but actually…
JYL: seeing his Baba get a shot and be okay might motivate him to be more brave
LWJ certainly doesn't feel brave. He's thinking of the blood flowing from his veins and then LEAVING them to go who knows where. It sounds barbaric
He has the distinct memory of learning what a period is in middle school and promptly passing out
He is not a fan of anything related to blood
But LWJ has learned that Yanli-jie knows what she's doing, so, despite the way he can swear he feels his blood pumping with fear, he agrees...but there's a problem.
LWJ: I am up to date on all my shots. How can I show him it is safe?
JYL: Hmm....I have an idea. My brother is a phlebotomist! He can help.
LWJ is confused. Last he heard, the younger Jiang is a prosecutor who makes a living viciously yelling in a courtroom.
JYL: Not him, Zhanzhan. My adoptive brother, A-Xian. I bet he would be happy to help you. He works at the blood bank at Yiling Clinic! The perfect exposure!
For who?, LWJ wonders. A blood bank sounds like a house of horrors to him. And a person who chooses to stick a needle in people and remove the very force that gives them life? He cannot imagine getting along with this person at all.
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Yiling Clinic is a community clinic in a part of town Lan Wangji has never been to, especially since the Gusu Group has their own private hospital.
But this is where Yanli-jie's phlebotomist little brother works.
A-Yuan clings to the back of his legs as they approach the receptionist, a young man with amazing cat eye makeup named Mo Xuanyu
These two definitely do not fit the bill for their usual patients, with their designer clothing, so he asks with some skepticism: Um, can I help you?
LWJ has spent the last two hours siking himself up for the blood part, he isn't prepared at all for social interactions. He flounders like a fish.
LWJ: …I am…We are here for…
A shout comes from behind them: Ah! A-Yu, is that A-jie's friend? Zhanzhan?
LWJ flinches until he sees a man sprinting towards them. The 1st thing he notices is this man is wearing lilac scrubs with little white rabbits on them.
The 2nd thing he notices is this man has the most enchanting smile he's ever seen. Already, LWJ feels more relaxed.
The man winks at him: You like the scrubs? A-jie said A-Yuan liked bunnies, I figured this would help keep him calm.
LWJ does not blurt I like bunnies too. But only just.
Beside the man is a pediatric nurse named Wen Ning, no relation, who says he's here to help with A-Yuan
Yanli-jie's little brother, the phlebotomist, introduces himself: Ah! Sorry, Lan Zhan. Jiejie always calls you that so it just stuck. I'm Wei Wuxian. You can call me Wei Ying if you wanna make it even.
Strangely, LWJ feels no need to correct him: Lan Zhan is fine, Wei Ying.
WWX smiles so brightly, LWJ feels dizzy with it.
WWX: Now where's the little bunny himself?
A-Yuan has been clinging behind LWJ's pant leg, tilting around just enough to peek with one eye at this strange gege.
WWX: Maybe not a rabbit then, a radish who likes to hide away!
A-Yuan becomes offended: I don't like radishes!
WWX laughs: Me neither! But Qing-jie says they help us grow big and strong, so they can't be all that bad huh?
WWX is crouched in front of A-Yuan, draping both arms across his knees and resting his chin in one hand. He waits.
LWJ admires his patience. The longer WWX waits, crouched and rocking back and forth in front of A-Yuan, smile gently and welcoming, the more A-Yuan's natural curiosity gets the better of him.
Eventually, his son comes out from behind his leg to touch a black bunny on his sleeve
A-Yuan: I like this one. We only have a white bunny at home.
WWX: I like the black bunny too! What's your bunny's name?
A-Yuan: Banana, bc she tries to eat Baba's banana every morning, and you are what you eat.
He recites this with all the solemnity a 4 yo could possess
WWX's laughter echoes through the lobby: Well! You're very right, A-Yuan. Maybe you aren't a radish after all then. Tell me, what do little boys eat?
A-Yuan: I'm not little! I'm 4 and a half!
WWX: Right, right, I sincerely apologize for my mistake. What do big boys eat then?
A-Yuan purses his lips and taps his chin, pondering his question carefully: Hmm… jelly beans?
WWX looks like he wants to laugh more, but instead says: I see, I see. Thank you for your wisdom A-Yuan.
He looks up at LWJ, dark eyes dancing. LWJ's heart rabbits against his chest
WWX: If your baba is ready, we can head down to my cave if you'd like. I have a lot of cool machines I'd love to show you.
A-Yuan's eyes widen into saucers as he gasps: A cave? Wowww
They grin conspiratorially at each other, before turning bright eyes up at LWJ
LWJ feels warm and much more relaxed inside, so he nods: Mn. We may go.
A-Yuan cheers and holds WWX's hand as the head downstairs.
LWJ trails behind making small talk with WN, watching WWX and A-Yuan swing their hands and skip ahead, feeling something warm blossom in his chest.
The hallway to Wei Wuxian's lab isn't anything like Lan Wangji expects.
The rooms at Gusu are all perfectly pristine and sterile, painted white to promote serenity, rest, and healing.
For one thing, he'd raided a Halloween store at some point and hung up all sorts of decorations, mostly vampire themed. There's one that's says "I vant to suck your blood!" except suck is crossed out and replaced with "donate". Wwx and A-yuan giggle together at wwx's fake accent
It's definitely not up to Gusu General's strict standards. For one thing, there're beanbag chairs in the hall outside. Wwx says it's to feel more comfy while others wait, as he's the only phlebotomist on staff and it can take a while. A-Yuan personally tests each one.
His lab is…adequate if far too small. There's a desk that's overrun with stacks of papers and textbooks and a shelf that's filled with even more. The actual space where blood is drawn is, thankfully, sterile and clean. Though he's decorated with demons demanding blood for food
There's a temp controlled room where the blood is stored, with a red door and the words "Blood Pool" written in menacing barely legible font
Despite the…interesting decor, the room is homely and, surprisingly, welcoming. A-Yuan at least is having a very fun time getting a tour
Wwx patiently answers all of A-Yuan’s questions, even the endless why's, with utmost sincerity, even when his answers are purely nonsense.
Lwj can't stop the fond smile from lifting the corner of his lips. A-Yuan had never warmed up to a medical professional so fast.
He's pulled from his musings when A-Yuan grabs his sleeve: Baba! Blood-gege says this machine makes blood spin around!
Wwx burst out laughing: Blood-gege? I love it!
Lwj is enchanted, head repeating those last 3 words again and again as wwx fondly ruffles A-Yuan's fluffy hair
Wwx: alright, now that you're familiar with my beauty Chenqing (referring to his bloody spinny machine lwj does not want to think about), shall we get down to business?
He says this with his bright dark eyes glittering at LWJ. Right. The blood donating part.
Lwj gulps, nodding. A prisoner walking up to the gallows.
TBC
(If you're interested, I'm probably going to continue at least up to the end of the first part before i just make it into one long fic! You can follow it on my twitter!)
#i tried the threadfic thing on twitter and im finding it hard to get any engagement there and i think this au is cute okay#and i cant write it until a couple weeks from now so im just gonna share it here#call me wwx the way im shameless with my self promotion#hehe#bushy writing#mdzs#wangxian#mdzs fanfiction#mo dao zu shi#if the formatting looks dumb its cause im copying and pasting from shitter djfksh i dont actually write like this i just wanna share this o#anyways someone tell me how twitter fandoms work why are they so hardddd#from what i've seen the writing mdzs fandom is most active on there but i cannot understand how to get recognition there#to be fair i've always been a tumblr girlie and never posted much on my twitter besides retweeting art anyways#but i want validation for my writing T___T#also threadfics are a challenge of themselves and i admire writers who have the patience to deal with them because i am very much losing#mine like what do you do about all the typos and the mistakes and just ahhhhhhhhh#also i think its because im joining in the middle of twitter's mass exodus but idk where else to go#anyways
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I want to write a frostiron one shot for Halloween but I don't know which idea to follow through on soooo you decide! :D
#both would be established relationships#the first one is set in the usual canon adjacent universe where Loki joined the Avengers and then gets hit with a vampire curse#the second one is a full AU where Tony is trying (and failing) to hide that he is a werewolf from his bf#they are both rather fluffy but the first one has a bit more of a darker vibe#i kinda wanted to challenge myself by writing something on relatively short notice#and i also just wanted to try making a poll but shhhh#frostiron#ironfrost#loki#tony stark#marvel#avengers#ao3#writing#fanfiction
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unconditional devotion is fun and all but i love when you have to work on your relationships with characters in rpgs. it's so much fun when they openly question mc's decisions if they are not aligned with their morals. when they object and start an argument and must be convinced to do something. when they don't join mc in the final fight if you don't trust each other enough.
the payoff hits so much harder this way. if you're a dick to them they will not put you above their principles and stances because why would they? but if you helped them if you proved yourself to be trustworthy if you were good to them they will stand beside you even if they're conflicted and have to sacrifice something for that. and it's so cathartic when you know they could leave but at the end of the day they didn't! because them and your character are besties! friendship and love are hard to earn but you did it and now it helped you win!
#this post is sponsored by the 'fenris doesn't deserve hawke because he didn't join my hawke on the side of mages' take i saw the other day#followed by comparison with certain character ig yk who with a remark that 'he's the only one worthy of hawke's friendship'#honestly i won't bother to write fenris character analysis to make a point why it's so hard for him to join mages#but there's an option for him to join hawke and if he doesn't. well. that's an rpg. that's on you#and honestly i love when a game offers you a little challenge. even if it's about relationships between characters#i remember in my first playthrough fenris refused to join hawke at first#and i was so devastated even though i managed to convince him to return later#but when i replayed the game and he joined hawke right on the spot i was so genuinely happy and relieved#and his final dialogue literally made me tear up that time. such a cool feeling#and it wouldn't be like that if he joined hawke in all outcomes! i wouldn't value it this much!#i have a lot to say on the topic but these tags are getting out of hand already so i'll shut up right here
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I really want to challenge myself to make an effort to be social IRL and also to connect with other writers and artists specifically but gosh that is just. so unbelievably scary to me.
#i've been stuck for so long but i finally have the tools i need to challenge myself safely#and i know i really need to challenge myself in order to get unstuck#but also omg i want to puke thinking about joining a writing group or something#personal#I CAN DO IT but i don't wanna 😭
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Jam's November Writing Challenge
Goal:
Finishing 4 WIPs
Finishing 3 Showman chapters (bonus points for a forth chapter)
Overview:
WIP 1 "???": ❌️
WIP 2 "???": ❌️
WIP 3 "???": ❌️
WIP 4 "???": ❌️
Chapter 55: ❌️
Chapter 56: ❌️
Chapter 57: ❌️
Bonus Points:
Chapter 58: ❌️
Book fair fic: ❌️
Little surprise: ❌️
Word Count
0 / 50.000
#lets do this 💪#really wanna test myself#if everything goes according to plan you all get four new fics and three maybe four chapters#if anyone wants to join in with their own challenge feel free to add yourself#we could motivate each other or help each other or just talk about writing#also want to try that book fair fic and little surprise fic are not included in the wips#will try to post new fics either friday (normal fics) or saturday (smut fics)#and Showman back on sunday#out of fun also added a word count#since i tend to write lots of words lets see if i can reach 50000
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Tojoctober Day 31 - Fly
(I follow the path I’ve chosen, searching in the endless night)
Alt title is from “Dreamcatcher” by Starset
Kiryu reflects.
(Spoilers. Just, spoilers.)
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Is this the first time I’m choosing to stand as an obstacle?
I’ve been one before, out of obligation. I’ve been the insurmountable wall that koi have chosen to climb, and I’ve seen so many fall from a height unimaginable to myself. The role of legend was shoved upon me, and all I could do was accept and eventually embrace it. There was ever only one dragon, even when others rose to challenge it.
The path I’d chosen, one that’s flirted with death so many times, and has even made itself unrecognizable. Is this where it all leads to? Am I doomed to throw myself into the fire over and over until there’s nothing left? Am I destined to protect dreams but not dream for myself?
Even being in prison for a quarter of my life barely deprived me of myself. First for selflessness, then for duty, I expected my agent life to be much of the same. A necessity to keep those I love safe. My family, as piecemeal as it is at times, can survive without me. They have before.
But I didn’t expect to feel so alone in my sacrifice.
I begin to sweat. Looking down, I adjust the cuffs of my sleeves, the all too familiar maroon peeking out from the sea of gray.
I never thought I’d don this suit again. The red and gray that I chose long ago to be my battle armor, taunted to wear for the rest of my life. While I proved him wrong, this suit is synonymous with my identity. When I threw my name into the fire years ago, naturally the suit went with it. To the world, Kazuma Kiryu is just a figure of legend.
Or so I thought.
I should’ve known that I can’t escape the ghosts of my past.
Throughout my time with the clan, I’ve seen past actions bite people in the ass. Sometimes they’re life lessons, sometimes it’s their demise. We always learn from the past, then use the present moment to define the next past. When we choose to cease hiding in the shadows, the figures of our past will be there to meet us.
I can still picture everyone's faces from the day the Fourth Chairman reemerged.
Watase, looking smug as ever, unwavering from the threats posed to him.
The legends of my past life, eyes shining with shock and hope.
The legends of the future, confused but allowing new adrenaline to soar through them.
The man whom I have no right to call my son, staring at me with the most warmth I’ve ever seen from him. His voice is the one that plays in my head, over and over. His words still sound like a dream.
And then… There's that one.
Maybe it’s his eyes. Or the way he carries himself. Or that design that echoes his essence. Or where I almost saw him walk, mere hours ago. There are many facets to that man, and I’m not one to normally make quick assumptions.
However, their resemblance is uncanny. If I close my eyes, I can hear the echoes of his laugh, like a ghost sending shivers throughout my psyche.
Maybe that’s why I’m here, edging so close to the disobedience of direct rules and orders.
I’m not going to let another man sink into the depths of that darkness. Not when I’m around to prevent it.
Opening my eyes, unaware that I had shut them to begin with, I hear the door open with a squeak, as pairs of footsteps follow. I look down at my watch, and take one last deep breath. I don’t need to turn around to know who’s there.
Alright.
It’s time I teach this young dragon how to fly.
#tojoctober#yakuza#ryu ga gotoku#rgg#kiryu kazuma#yakuza spoilers#I would've joined the Mine train but it felt a bit obvious#so here we are#i decided to challenge myself with no dialogue for this last prompt and I think I did pretty good!#did I give Kiryu too much inner turmoil? maybe? with everything's he's gone through I'd be shocked if it wasn't there#can you tell I'm excited for gaiden#i'm writing up a reflection of the month/experience that'll probably go up later today#but yeah. feels weird for it all to be over.
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Finished a fic event and was basking in being done and taking a day or two off from thinking abt fic and NOW after the event is DONE my brain is like
'random prompts pls? prompts for a poor little brain? no, i don't want to think any up myself, i just want them here! why didn't i act like this during the majority of the prior fic event? bc then it would have been most useful, or course!'
... anyway does anyone know of any low key/chill (like Izzy Hands Bingo is) fall fic events/challenges/bingos lol?
(ofmd related or otherwise, I'm pushing myself to try and write more of my original fiction and poetry too this fall. Hoping for chill bc i do have an increased work schedule from now to the election plus im always sporadic in how i work on events/challenges/bingos as shown by the latest one aksndkfngn)
#text post#im keeping my eye on the few event blogs i follow but some of those aren't going to be for me#ive seen a few whumptober but i don't think im anywhere near proficient enough at writing whump to participate#hurt/comfort sure but whump i feel like ive never gotten right no matter the fandom#there's also a server for general fall season writing but thus far i have been too shy to join it#maybe after this week when the first fall survey is done ill be brave and join up and see how that challenge looks#would be nice to have a mainly writing server to be in too tbh#im rambling bc my brain is just throwing disjointed plot points at me that are of no use rn imma go byeeeeee
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